all things me

I still don’t have a name for it! Simon’s stuck too good. Maybe I’ll settle on Simon the Second or Jr.

Sullivan?

How will I not drop dead?

I agreed to start in the new job — if they’ll have me — right after next week. This week is for the project, next week I have an exam, and then BAM. New job. New hectic job.

Uhhh.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy they were interested in getting me aboard. They were impressed by my choice of subjects at the Uni (I’m glad someone is…), and career opportunities after graduation were mentioned. I’m sure they were just keeping their jaws limber, but it sounded pretty good (and scary).

How to deal with the nonexistent time away from all sorts of responsibilities (maybe I take responsibilities too seriously) and never-ending early mornings (*cough cough*)? Just “stop whining” and lots of coffee? I hope it’ll go smoothly; I probably won’t even notice the lack of vacation. It just would be so nice to do nothing scheduled for a while.

If they’ll have me, that is.

[edit: Aug 3rd] They’ll have me. [/edit]

I have a confession to make: I’ve liked Batman ever since I was a little girl. Yes, I watched the cartoonish Batman series (“POW”) — religiously. Every week anxious to see how Batman and Robin get out of the traps evil Joker, Penguin or whoever has got them in. I even saw a lot of dreams of Gotham City. Full moon. Dark city skyline. Niiice.

Yesterday I saw Batman Begins (I started writing this yesterday but was too tired to finish). My friend was amused by the movie. I was fascinated. It was wonderful to see the development of all the equipment — very rough at first (oi, the car *chuckles*) and of course how Batman evolved (or Bruce Wayne, that is), and the connections to all things Batman. I’ve never read the comics, so I don’t know how faithful the movies are to the original story; my sister claims the beginning of Batman was portrayed wrongly in this movie (I told her the plot). I can neither disagree nor agree, because I can’t remember any details from the other movies.

This was a wondeful Batman movie. Serious enough (no Joker, and no Michael Keaton), gloomy enough, surprising enough (I don’t try to figure out movies while they’re running, I take twists as they come — I do often figure out things before they are shown on screen so don’t think I’m stupid). It was delightful to hear Bruce Wayne say “does it come in black?” My kind of guy. (Now, if there only was a real one out there somewhere…)

Had quite a scare. My computer wouldn’t connect to the internet.

It kept looking for the IP address and failing. Luckily, I remember my IP by heart (one of the “requirements” of a nerd, I guess) so I was able to ask my sister for the rest. Phew.

(No, I don’t really have a photographic memory, usually I do remember exactly where, on a page for example, the info I need is but not necessarily the info itself )

After a damn bad night (barely 3 hours or sleep; for no reason) and a brain-wrecking exam, I’m looking forward to my 5-day vacation. I do have a dentist’s appointment, course feedback meeting, and a project meeting, and I have to go to the library some day (to take back all the books I read for the exam). Anyway, what should I do now? How about an X-Files marathon (I recently bought Season 6 DVD box not long after finding season 5 — pretty lucky, wouldn’t you say)? Am I done with the reading for a while or should I walk on with Roland, Susannah, and Oy (Dark Tower VII is waiting to be finished — begging, in fact). Or what about slaught… I mean, game fest? Second Sight is in a intriguing phrase: chapter called Confrontation. Who will I confront?

Everything sounds so tempting. I’ve got all the time in the world. Till Tuesday. Luckily I don’t have to be at work until 10. (My kinda time of day.)

I have a bad habit of not looking in the eye all the time when talking to people. I don’t know why, but it’s difficult (perhaps because I don’t like someone looking at me in the eye all the time). In the job interview I was in a weird zone or trance and I didn’t 1) freak out, 2) blush, 3) have my heart pounding out of my chest, 4) avoid eye contact. Having met quite a few people today (first day at new job) and I remember there are some stare-avoiders at the department, too, I’ve noticed how annoying that really is.

Also, shaking a limp hand is very freaky — it’s like it would break if I squeezed at all. I managed to get a sound out of one hand today (a man’s, mind you — the Limpy one was a skinny woman) Anyway, everyone was really nice and I did notice some of that friendly teasing I was warned about (not directed at me, yet).

You can probably see I haven’t shaken so many hands in my life. A fair amount but not enough to call it a regular thing.

Now I’m pondering whether I can call people by their first name… Maybe I’ll think of sneaky ways around the problem. After all, I just studied veeery boooring stuff on forms of address for an exam.

Yeah, I’m stressed out on the 2nd day.

No, not really. Just blabbering about work because I’m really really tired (I worked till 5:30 — don’t worry, I didn’t do overtime). Part II of bad habits: I can’t take breaks.

I didn’t eat at work today or yesterday; yesterday I was too nervous to be hungry, today I didn’t have anything to prepare and people/person I could’ve gone to lunch with ate in — I’m also nearly incapable of going to lunch alone. Also, I often work non-stop, because I don’t have the excuse of smoking to take a break and if I do take a break (in front of the computer for instance, maybe to check mail) I’m afraid people will think I’m not doing my job (not that there is much work now that I’ve just started). I did get a cup of coffee and ate a banana today. Hurray.

At the Uni project I sometimes went to eat alone when I was really really really hungry, so maybe I’ll learn to do that when I’m more used to working at this new place. Maybe I even dare use my Cookie Benefit (cookies and coffee + condiments are on the house) one day.

Today as I was walking down the stairs from work and had to adjust my left sock, I noticed I was wearing one blue and one black sock. The accursed blue socks I accidentally bought after a long day at ex-job! Am I weird if this incident upsets me greatly? Well, it does!

Luckily I didn’t notice it in the morning. That could’ve spoiled my day.

I am actually female. I’m probably not a nerd, but I’m a wanna-be nerd.

(If you can read Finnish check out #72 at Blogi Kriitikko X, but basically it says that I claim to be a nerd even though apparently there are no female nerds (says who?). So my writings are either just bluff OR I’m actually male who tries to seem interesting. Hmm… which is it?)

Yeah… I’ve got lots to smile about… a wisdom tooth removal “recommended within a year”. The notorious tooth is in bottom left corner.

(Really difficult to scan an X-ray.)