Always a disappointment
Mum’s birthday is coming up and I was thinking of maybe inviting everyone over for dinner and coffee. She’s been talking how she should come over some day to see what has happened since her last visit. What’s holding me back? I’m scared Dad would have something to complain about the food again, that it tastes bad or weird. I’ve baked a lot of things and there’s always been something wrong. I do know Mum makes better food but she’s had a “few” more years to practise. (And she always makes the same dishes while I experiment.)
Nothing would make me more happy than hearing a compliment from Dad on something — anything — some day. We have a good relationship and I’ve always been a Daddy’s girl, so I don’t understand why I can’t seem to be good enough in anything.
Urgh. Thinking about this just makes me angry and sad. I need a distraction.
That’s too bad but I know how you feel. Whenever I’d do something it seemed my mother would always have some ‘tip’ as to how to do it better or what I should have done. I always took it as criticism and when I think back, maybe I was just being too touchy, maybe I should have thought, “oh, I’ll try it that way next time”.
Who knows if it’s just a matter of perception.
Mum can offer tips and I often ask her help but Dad just wrinkles his nose at the food or belittles me in the other things. *sigh*